Sunday, August 25, 2013
Lately I've been having memories of painful events and times in my life. These memories have found their way back into my mind. I've broken down crying without explanation just straight out of the blue. These memories are ones that I didn't get or didn't take the time to deal with. I pressed them down, corked them and set them aside. The only problem is that when I did that I set myself up for a time like this. A time when there is nothing I can do to stop these memories from coming up. I can't just push them down anymore because they won't go away.
In the midst of this (with some help) I've come to the realization that it's time to just deal with it. The emotions and the hurt that I've tried to hide from has found me and it's time for a confrontation. Over time, as we don't deal with our hurts and hangups, we set up a domino effect and the effect grows. All it takes for us to blow up or break down is for the right trigger to be tapped.