Social Icons

Monday, April 25, 2011

It's Time to Come Up !

     Comfortable and easy.  Tried and understood.  You know the city, the buildings, the rooms, you even know where each piece of furniture sits.  You could find your way blind.  

That's where many of you are right now.  

     There is a tried and true way or path that you follow.  You never change anything and nothing else changes so it's always the same. You control it or at least feel you have control over where you're at right now.  Because it never changes you've gotten comfortable but every now and then you wish for something, you dream of something a little more exciting, a little bigger than your current "place."  The problem here is when you're faced with something out of your norm you're likely to stay with what you  know. Everything else is risky, it's uncomfortable.  You don't know the outcome, you can't control it, you may have to trust someone other than those who currently hold your trust.  You may have to do something you've never had to do before or you may have to acknowledge that you need help.  

The questions I pose to you are :
What do you REALLY want?
Would you like to have what you've always had?  
Would you like to be who you've always been?  

     There is a new and higher level of living, of ministry, of anointing, of personal growth and healing that you can go to but it's going to take faith.  It's going to take widening your circle of trust.  It's going to take giving up control, taking a risk and believing in something outside of you and what you can do in your own power.  It's going to take answering the question "What are you willing to give up or let go of in order to go higher?"  

Are you satisfied to only dream

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Movie Theater Sermon

     I never expected to hear a sermon at the movie theater but God works in mysterious ways.

     The story line is familiar with warring sides who don't like each other because..... well.... you're the wrong color and you live in the wrong yard.... and well..... that's just the way it's always been.  

     So they compete against each other until graffiti causes someone to go to far.  Now we are in an all out war to cause as much pain to the other side as possible.  Does the pain and injury intended go beyond the "wrong" believed to have been done? Yep... of course it does.  When the other side is an annoyance to you just because they breathe the same air you do.... you got issues.

     So the son of one clan and the daughter of another meet under the perfect conditions.  Their background is hidden, their identity as "enemies" is masked, their color and clan cannot be seen.  So now, with all that out of the way, all the obstacles to truly getting to know someone removed... they can begin to fall in love with the "heart" they are beginning to recognize.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Father's Love Letter

An Intimate Message From God To You.

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. 
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways. 
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. 
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image. 
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring. 
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived. 
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation. 
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book. 

Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live. 

Acts 17:26

Sunday, April 3, 2011

I Ended Up In A Fashion Show !

     At age 18 I was about 120 lbs and wore size 12 clothes..... 
but I was fat.

That's how I saw myself.  
     All I'd ever been told was that I was fat and needed to lose weight and when you've been told that long enough you believe it.  I had no friends, no confidant, no value, and no worth.  I wore black all the time to camouflage what I thought was wrong with my body but I also wore it because it fit my mood.  I was emotionally scarred as you can imagine.  I could preach the word of God, break it down and explain it for you at a young age.  I knew the word of God told us that he didn't judge us on our outside, our body, our wealth, our status, our color.... it was our heart he's concerned about but the walls I surrounded myself with were high and they were defended and no one attempted to break them down.

     When my wonderful husband came into my life, I literally saw no value in myself so when he ask me to marry him I couldn't understand why he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me.  I definitely couldn't understand why he would bypass all the beautiful girls in the church and ask me.  He said he loved me but I couldn't understand why?  There had to be something wrong with him that he could love me?  Maybe he liked fat girls?  Even though I didn't understand how he could love me I loved him dearly so of course I said yes.  The fact that I hadn't found a way to love myself made things difficult on our relationship for years.  In my eyes everything boiled down to having something to do with my weight and my size.

     As I got older and had children I got larger so of course that made matters worse.  I put on more weight and I personally lost, in my eyes, what little value I felt I had.  I stopped wearing dresses and skirts because I got sick and tired of looking like I bought my clothes from Omar the tent maker.  I was tired of picking clothes off the rack that I thought would look good on me only to have them accentuate everything that was wrong with my body.  While I refused to judge others on their size or weight I couldn't help but judge myself unworthy because of mine.
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...